Well, this
is the part where I explain to you all how my Christian journey begun. I
started going into the Lord’s house because I was emptied by the burdens of
being self-reliant. I relied on myself to get that university application etc.
and so when everything came crushing down in front of me, I thought I’d done
something wrong in terms of the process required to get it. Little did I know
what was called “God’s plan”? I needed this one thing so bad and though my
relationship with God wasn’t at its best I had this crazy idea of jumping
the part where I had to seek the kingdom of God and the rest shall be added
unto me. So my prayer life accelerate, 3am prayers, fasting, desperate prayers,
I stop going out, partying, basically everything I knew pleased God, I did. So
after all that, clearly I didn’t get what I was begging for but I got something bigger and greater. It led me to
who I am today.
Even though
I was pretty devastated, pity parties were thrown eh, it was basically lit up
in my room, where I closed myself and sobbed every night. But I knew I had to
dig up some courage to keep going, to move on to something (easier said than
done,i know). A few months later I got back on my horse called life and kept riding to some sort of purpose. Meanwhile of course round 2, 3 and 4 of that pity party resumed
because as much as i pretended to act like I was made of steel, I wasn’t. It’s
okay to fall into discouragement as long as you don’t stay there. After a
couple of figuring out what my purpose was, I started serving in church and
that brought a lot of clarity and deep Salvation to myself. I opened my heart
and God healed it, he showed me with great love and peace that I had never
experienced before and that’s when I realized that seeking his kingdom is what
I wanted, since then it’s not been easy but I’ve given him full control. I have
never looked back.
So am here
to testify that, they will be dark seasons in your life but the good news is
that they won’t leave you with a cough or flue but with strength, faith and
Freedom. xoxo
