"Follow the leader"

I recently just realized that, I spent too much time and  basically half of my life aiming towards someone else’s dreams. I spent a long time visualizing a life which was considered as “the norm”.  But on my journey as a Christian seeking to see God’s hand in my everyday life, I’ve come to realize that, what I wanted wasn’t what I was designed for and that I don’t have to live according to the standards of this world and what it calls “a normal life” because we are created for something higher. I then, developed an attitude whereby I know and I understand that I have to live for God’s plan and that plan has to be carried out eventually, regardless of how long it takes. So how then does God’s plan start taking action in your life?  By constantly following the Holy Spirit and what it leads your heart to doing. Being on a daily walk, side by side with the Holy Spirit reveals a lot to you and you grow to understand more. The Holy Spirit doesn’t lead you to the so called “norm” but instead it wants to make an exception out of you. Society shouldn’t control us to drifting us from our faith and what we believe in but instead we should be controlled by the higher power which is none other than the Holy Spirit.

The bible says in John 14:17, “I will ask the father and he will give you another helper, who will stay with you forever”.  This helper that we were fortune enough to be granted free of charge is the holy spirit, which is appointed to guiding us each step of the way.

I am a SURVIVOR

I was born in November 1992 about 2 years before the 94 Tutsi genocide here in Rwanda. I was born in a small family; it was just me and my older brother Kevin who was born a year before me. My parents were entrepreneurs, working for themselves in town. They met and fell in love and by October 1990, they were married here in Kigali- Rwanda. My father grew up and spent most of his life in Uganda, where he also did achieve his education. Afterwards he had to move to Rwanda- Kigali, where he had found a bride and so he settled in Kigali. And as for my mother, she was raised and grew up right here in her motherland all her life. After 2 years happily married with 2 kids, a tragedy occurred. They had been insecurity threats in the country for a longtime and for that my parents were never comfortable leaving me and Kevin alone at home with our nanny while they went off to work every morning, so instead they’d always drop us off at my grandmother’s in Kiyovu with our nanny who took care of us and they’d go on with their day and later in the evening on their way back from work, they’d pick us up and we would all head to our home in Nyamirambo. This routine went on for a longtime until one day, it was done differently which is how me and my brother Kevin survived the 94 genocide.

It was on the 5^th of April, when they dropped us off on their way to work and at that time it was intense in the country and everyone was living in fear even though they’d wake up and try to live a normal life which my parents also tried to maintain. So, that morning they dropped us off at my grandmother and on their way back that evening something held them up at work and they left work a little bit later than usual and so since it was late and we were already asleep, they called my grandmother and told her to keep us for the night and that they would be coming back to pick us the next day. On the 6^th of April (the following day) my mother went to work as usual but my father remained at home (nobody really remembers what exactly happened) but they didn’t go to together at work that day and so that evening when my mother called my grandmother to have us dressed and ready, that she was coming by to pick us up and take us back home. When she reached my grandmother’s house, grandma tried to convince her that it was not safe for her and that she should just remain here as well at least until the morning and maybe then she could go. But my mother became hard to convince to stay and so she told my grandmother that, she couldn’t stay and leave her husband- my father- to stay home alone that night so she instead allowed to leave Kevin and I with my grandmother since she had insisted and so she went back home in Nyamirambo and we stayed in Kiyovu with my grandmother. On that night, the night of the 6^th is when President Habyarimana’s plane crushed and the madness begun and on the following day, is when the official day of the killing begun and so nobody was allowed to leave their homes especially those who were targeted and so my father and mother stayed at home that day in fear while we also remained at my grandmother’s in kiyovu.

The interahamwe invaded Nyamirambo on the 8^th of April, brutally killing everyone and leaving no one behind. It’s said that on that day in Nyamirambo is where there was massive killing in the beginning days of the 94 genocide. My father was apparently on “the list” and so on that day, a large group of interhamwe barged into our home in Nyamirambo and started shooting non-stop and running around the house, threw all the rooms in searched of anyone  who could be there hiding from them and so my Father and mother were killed in that way. My aunt who survived hid outside in the dog house and the house girl covered her and didn’t tell the men about her. The house girl who had “Hutu” stamped on her National ID was safe and so the men left the house, leaving my father and mother dead. My grandmother heard the news and so she kept us threw out and the whole journey of trying to survive. It was not easy running and escaping from machetes and gun fires  for about 3 months with a 1yr(almost2) old baby and a 2(almost 3) yrs old baby, but my grandmother managed with the help of the other members of my family. My Grandmother raised us and onto this day she is still fighting and taking care of us. And this is my story of how I survived. 

“Purpose from the maker”

In life when we keep hitting walls it doesn’t mean that we are doing it something wrong, it simply just means you are forcing a purpose which is not designed for you. I use to think holding on is an act of faith and believing that it will happen, but I came to understand that sometimes we need to stop  planning our lives and constantly asking ourselves what we want to do but rather ask, “ God, what do you want me to do?”

The question is, what does God want you to do? At times we want to go all the way to the noon to accomplish “what we think is best for us” while what God designed for us is literally right in front of us. But we are blindsided by society on what is “the best” but God’s plans are even better so do not settle for less aim to accomplish the best together with the one who can make that happen only if you let him and stop fighting your biggest enemy which is you. God will not work, while you are still up and down, left and right but he will intervene once you let go.

Sometimes, I ask myself what’s my purpose? And truth be told, I haven’t done a good job trying to figure it out on my own. I  met rejections and disappointment but the day i accepted that I am not my own my maker, and that only the maker of a creation only knows how to make it work, I have freely step out of the way and allowed him to intervene and changed my perspective on life. A lot of people think that in life, you have to suffer to get up there but what’s the point of the cross then? Why the double suffering?

Seek the truth to understand your purpose and your destiny. Skip the step of suffering put on our lives by this world because that is not how it happens in his kingdom. Sometimes, I ask myself when Jesus said. “It is finished” what did he mean? What is finished? Jesus put an end to it but we keep bringing it back over and over and over again. The shackles were broken so  Let’s also put an end to it.

“The power of a peaceful mind”

The truth can hurt you, or the truth can change you.

What will, the truth do to you?

The truth is, we won’t always get what we want. When situations have changed; screaming and shouting shouldn’t be our last resort. But, in humbleness and trust is where our strength comes from. Step back for a second and look closely, how am i reacting to my current situation? Are you playing the blame game on yourself? Or are you learning something from it?

Truth be told, What else can we offer ourselves other than “PEACE”. A peacefully   mind puts order into our thinking. It gives us time to step back and realize what’s happening around us. Is it the will of God?

I believe that, sometimes our failures are a test from God to test, our attitude towards a situation. Failure exposes  who we really are in Christ. Are we; weak in Christ, lukewarm in Christ or strong in Christ? “Think about it?”

You are always being tested. God constantly watches your response to people, problems, success, conflicts, illness, disappointment and even the weather! He watches the simplest actions such as when you open a door for others, when you pick up a piece of trash or when you are polite to the waitress.

The fight is not yours; don’t take up a war that isn’t yours. Be a warrior in the war of prayer and surrender the rest to the Lord with arms wide open. (Matthew 11:28 “Come to me all of you who are tired from carrying heavy loads, and I will give you rest”)

Don’t be hurt by the truth, instead listen carefully to it and let the Holy Spirit lead your mind and soul to higher understandings. Ignoring the truth or arguing with it is worse than being a blind man walking across a high way during rush hours. Because when reality knocks you, it hits hard. My uncle always tells us, “Sometimes we need a slap from God to wake us up”

Victory or Defeat

This brings me back, to the article I wrote a while back “CHOICES”

 As part of life, we face so much defeat in our everyday lives. It comes inform of; Illness, financial instabilities, etc. But our attitude at that moment, how we face those situations is what matters. We’ll always have things to battle with whether we like it or not, some will be bigger than others and others will be minor but how we handle ourselves in times of trials brings great joy to God (1 peter 1:6-7, “⁶ Be glad about this, even though it may now be necessary for you to be sad for a while because of the many kinds of trials you suffer, ⁷ Their purpose is to prove that your faith is genuine. Even gold, which can be destroyed, is tested by fire, and so your faith, which is much more precious than gold, must also be tested, so that it may endure then you will receive praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus is revealed).

When we choose defeat onto our lives, we are letting the devil win over us and we all know that he’s intentions aren’t of any good at all. Unfortunately we’ve let on defeat at one point in our life without even knowing so, for example; I myself, back in the days I use to limit myself to the best of my ability, there were times I’d given up on doing certain things with a mentality of “it’s not my thing”.

While I was working my college applications, some of my friends know this; there were times I could literally say to myself “Oh my, I don’t think I’ll get it or I don’t thing I fit the qualifications and all those other non-sense but little did I know that, that’s calling on defeat unto myself. That was literally losing a battle I didn’t even fight to begin with. But the moment I learnt that you either embrace or block your own blessings it’s up to you. Do not doubt your faith, or the level of your victory, think far beyond your ability because you are able, you just need to attempt it to see it. This verse shows us and explains to us the power of our ability (Mark 11:23, “²³ I assure you that whoever tells this hill to get up and throw itself in the sea and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him).

So chose victory unto your life and throw away the negativity in you, stopping you from achieving whatever your heart desires, in other words take a leap of faith and see how great our God is. Ask for victory, and victorious you shall see yourself, it will be done to you as you’ve ask and set it in your heart. THAT’S MY DECLARATON TO YOU ALL. Blessings

                                                                        Xoxo

Patience in Christ

Being patient isn’t in anyone’s nature, I know that for a fact , personally waiting patiently hasn’t been my strongest suit neither an easy path, but as I got deeper into understand how things work around us, it gave me an idea on how to go about this issue and today I wanted to share with you on this powerful attitude.

First pray to God to grant you this powerful attitude, the attitude of being still in patience and calmness. we often lose it when things around us aren’t going our way or anything close to what we expected but if only we took a step back, think for a second and actually ask ourselves; why It happened a certain way, Is it maybe that we are up and down looking for silver while God wants to give us Gold? And sometimes I ask myself, but God why? While you are at it look back as well, take time to remember all he did for you in the past which you never expected. Over the years I’ve learned that nothing happens as an accident or a coincidence in our lives.

If we only knew what we were being prepared for ahead, right over that mountain that looks like it’s covering the beautiful path we wish or hoped for, we would actually be grateful for the challenges we are facing right now (Romans 8:18, I consider that what we suffer at this present time cannot compare at all to the glory that is going to be revealed to us). If only we had a chance to see a “sneak peek” of what lies ahead .But of course it’s easier said than done, as humans we are just created that way, but the good news is that we can play a small role in making these certain situations better which will make this journey a whole lot easier and there’s nowhere else we find it other than trusting and surrendering it all to God with a Patient mind and a thankful heart. 

                                           

God's Timing

As human beings, we often want to live in the fast world, where everything is working out in our favor and according to our speed and we often feel like our time is now or never. But we forget the one who took his precious time with no rush in creating us, or in creating the world, the book of Genesis speaks about the length of creation and what we should pick from it is; there’s not even one day where he rushed to create or created 2 things on the same day “to save up time” or “to rush the creation process”

He is still working with the same pace till this day, God is in no rush and he certainly never delays. It may seems like our situations have been delayed or they aren’t moving fast but those are one of the things that our bare eyes see, that is the picture the devil projects in our minds hence the injection of feeling hopeless, tired and inpatient. No matter what we do, however things look possible at that time but end up not working out at the last minute, remember God’s timing because when God’s clock rings, blessings will pour nonstop. The beautiful part is, when we are working according to God’s time everything is done differently and beyond human understand, that is why also when God is preparing for that time, we as human fall short and we are blindsided into thinking he has given up on us but, I PROMISE YOU, he is cooking up something real sweet for you which will bring you satisfaction that this world can never offer.

I, myself suffered from patience towards God, I had this urge to see my life change, urge to see it picking up and moving on its maximum speed until I learnt that, I am not my own maker, I had to give way and time to my maker to work and as he does that, I’ll be waiting patiently, worshiping and praising my lord till that day when his clock shall say; “IT’S GO TIME”.

Growing up , just like any child I didn’t believe in the power of prophecy, I always thought; ah it’s too much or even made up but as I grow into the power of Christianity and reading God’s word, the power of prophecy has been there for ages and it has been there to boost our hope and faith, having a promise to hold on to is the key and no human, not even the most powerful of them shall contradict God regarding the promises he made to you and to your life. Each one of us has a package of blessings in store for them; pray every day to God that when the time comes, you’ll embrace it with open arms and a pure heart.

                                                                          xoxo